identity in Christ.

One lesson this year that is constantly in pounding in my heart is my identity, and where I find it. This year has drastically changed for both Christian and I. The whole of last year and the two years before that I was constantly working. Always finding time for everything and everyone except God. I lost myself in money, trying to chase it day in and day out. I was so wrapped up in my job, I lost my passion for community and the joy it brought to be in the body of Christ. There became no balance, and all my energy was in work. I couldn't get enough time to go to church and get involved. I was spiritually hungry for more. I felt the pressures of the world coming down on me. I felt the pressures of vanity and money constantly being drilled in my head that I eventually began thinking that way. Soon enough that became my identity. I felt empty in the end of the day. And for some funny reason, I really missed church. I missed the relationships built. The joy it brought to be serving the Lord. For the past three years I was constantly told that I need money to survive. I need money to grow my life. I need to keep myself busy to make that money. Eventually doing hair turned from a pure joy to a golden handcuff. I knew I wanted more in my life. I knew I wanted to help people, but I didn't know where to start. Through this personal journey of mine, as last year ended so did my contract. I felt those chains release and I knew it was time to move on and give this new year all to God. It was indeed a difficult decision I had to do, but I did it fully trusting in God. This year has been an incredible journey. Seeing God's goodness in the lives of people. Seeing his incredible grace working all over the world. Being able to work with Christian more and more as a team. Being able to have time to be with family and friends. Seeing God as the provider, and there is nothing I can do. With being engaged I have felt the pressures of needing a consistent job, and finding stability. I am grateful to God for such an amazing fiance who constantly reminds me where I need to find my full trust in. Where I need to find my identity in. There is nothing I can do, but to lay my life completely at the foot of the Cross and know that He is in control. Thank you Lord for bringing me where I am, desperately needing you and nothing else.